A Cautionary Tale: No lessons learned….

No lessons learned…

help March 16, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — ctale @ 7:44 am

I need to do something creative and feel gratified by it…can someone please point me in the right direction because nothing - nothing - interests me right now and that’s making me sad.

This could be because I’m pmsing though I loathe to use as an excuse for anything, but it could be…it also could be because I am planning my wedding and there is nothing fun about it (and I probably feel this way because it makes me worry and stress about money more which I already do more than a girl in my situation needs to do - and that situation is…I have a home and food and a car and clothes so get over yourself - ignore the debt). It might also be because my days are consumed with the same schedule. A schedule built around my daughter.  And though I love her more than anything . painfully so (seriously my heart actually hurts from it). Sometimes you just need a little bit of your old life back and right now I can’t seem to mentally tap back into that.  I mean, she’s asleep from 7:30 pm on. How hard would it be to become a thoughtful, interesting person with something more to do than just watching past TV shows on DVD?

Apparently it’s pretty hard, because as I type this post I just remembered that I have to go over to the wedding “planner” website I’m using, to keep everything I need to do in one place, and update something. shit.

 

11 Responses to “help”

  1. K Says:

    If all you have the energy for is watching TV, I say pour a glass of wine and settle in with some fashion mags and enjoy! That’s what I’ve been doing all winter!
    I LOVE the redesign, by the way. So pretty!

  2. heidi Says:

    knitting always makes me feel better and can be done in front of tv. i also like jigsaw puzzles. not very creative, but goal oriented. hope you feel better.

  3. Pam Says:

    I second the knitting idea. It even turns into a social activity sometimes when I go hang out with the knitting group at Starbucks. (Apparently there’s one that meets at the Barley Pub too.)
    This is also why I am dragging my feet on even getting started with wedding planning. Actually, dragging my feet doesn’t even start to describe it. My feet aren’t moving at all. It just instigates disagreements and I start to wonder why fix what isn’t broken.

  4. kreblog Says:

    It is very frustrating I know, I’ve felt the need to do “something” well before BBK but haven’t had the energy to start anything. I think that is why I blog as much as I do.

  5. Thursday Says:

    Well, what did you used to do before Miss S came along? You must have spent evenings at home doing stuff

  6. mcpolack Says:

    Why not start a book club? Even better if you can do so with other mommies. Also you could set a goal of getting out of the house one night every other week, even if it’s just for two hours. Go to a coffee shop and be all by yourself away from the family and read or knit or listen to music.

  7. xianfern Says:

    Have another baby. If I ever found myself getting bored, I’d just pop another kid out! You know, it’s going to get better when the nicer weather rolls around. It’s hard to get interested in anything when we’ve all spent so much time trapped in our houses. Soon you’ll be able to sit out on your adorable little porch and enjoy a cocktail with D.. and maybe start enjoying some of your wedding plans.. just think, it won’t be long before we’re on a lake, with all our peeps enjoying sangria!!! Can’t wait.. until then, knit!! Or continue watching the t.v!

  8. Mrs Rants Says:

    You have what they call a serious case of cabin fever. Seriously, I have been trapped inside my house for the past 3.5 months with a newborn and some nights, when Mr. rants comes home, I hand the baby over and go outside for a walk, no matter how cold it is. For a hobby, the kitting thing is great. I quilt. If you want to start a book club, I would join! I could use some adult time too.

    Oh, and planning a wedding is fun at first, but when you start adding up all the money, it isn’t so fun anymore. Hang in there. Hopefully you are taking a nice honeymoon?

  9. ctale Says:

    Thanks Guys!
    1) I used to knit - I should start again definitely
    2) I wish I could write more - creatively - i’m considering going to a writing group - which would get me out of the house more as Mcpolack suggested.
    3) Another friend and I were talking about starting a book club so I’ll keep you posted Mrs. Rants!
    4) another baby…not till after the wedding!

    it’s definitely cabin fever. I need out of here!!! Plus I jsut came down with yet another cold/sore throat thing. argh.

  10. ballard Greener Says:

    Wow you got a lot of advice on this one! Let me take a tongue in cheek moment and summarize the collective blog response:

    Drink wine heavily in front of the t.v. while immersing yourself in knitting and jig saw puzzles. If you become lonely in your drunkenness head down to the nearest knitting bar and take part with other drunken knitters. Should you find you need to be alone again then sober up at starbucks and read. Should loneliness set in while sobering up then start a starbucks book club. At the end of a busy knitting, puzzle, book club day you will want to have another baby then drink on your front porch and enjoy wedding planning(enjoy?..hmm). I think xian would admit, however, typically you drink first then work on having the baby…..or in her case…two.

    I hope this helps……and makes you smile!

    If I can do anything in helping you organize the wedding let me know. Just shoot an email and you can take or leave my advice. I’ve seen a lot of weddings in my catering days. I found that writing an hour by hour itinerary of events for the whole day on paper helps focus on any missed priorities and allows you to visualize your special day better.

  11. K Says:

    My comment here wasn’t very helpful, so how about this: have you thought about taking a class? I’ve been taking beginner French for the last four months, and it’s been really fun. No grades or anything, just very casual yet I’m definitely learning something. It’s only once a week for an hour and a half. Maybe there are some night classes near you you could take? As an added bonus, you can put it on your resume too!

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